I have the the following verse taped to my mirror in my bathroom. On a weekly basis, I read the verse over and over again...nothing new. But this morning, after some qt with God, this verse almost literally jumped out and hit me like it never had before. Going through some serious seeking at the moment and this just brought a peace like no other. Good stuff...ya know...kinda like those sunday mornings when you can barely muster up enough energy to drive like 45 min. to church only to be hit in the face with the most appropriate sermon ever. anyone...? just me...moving on.
Seriously, God is so amazing. He knows exactly what I need...
"For this is God, our God forever and ever; He will be our guide even to death." Psalm 48:14
I don't have to know how God is going to do something. I have to know only the one step that God is asking me to take.
Monday, January 28, 2008
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Sunday, January 13, 2008
Journey to destiny...
When I moved to Dallas, I knew God had a reason for my move. However, I became so very eager to figure out what my reason for being here was... when I didn't get those answers right away....I was angry. I was hurt that He would bring me five hours from my home, friends and family and not give me a real reason why. West Monroe was full of people who got me. I didn't have to prove myself to anyone there. I served in a church where people knew my name and I had community. To sum it up...it was comfortable.
I was so angry at God that, eventually I just gave up. Spiritually, I fell asleep. Hurt and with feelings of abandonment I was more lonely than I had ever been in my life.
And my journey this year did not begin any easier. It was a road with bumps that have left me bruised and bloody. And one day, when I wasn't looking, I hit a road block. It hit me hard that I fell and landed on my face. Unable to move and pleading to God, I let go and did something so very simple yet very hard for me to do...I asked for help.
You see I had to let go of a load that I had been carrying for so long. It was a load so unique to me full of hurt, fear, insecurity, and pride. It was during this time of hurt and pain both spiritually and physically that I allowed God to begin healing me. I let Him love and care for me as only He can do. That time has been one of the sweetest of my life. For the first time,I began to know God not only as my Father but as my Provider. Its amazing how when we let go and give our hurts and fears over to Him...He fills us with the most amazing things.
I did finally realize why I'm here. It's simply to trust and take up my cross and follow Him. He led me to Dallas. He led me out of a comfortable place to an unknown place that was and sometimes is as scary as hell. Where fear and doubt once were have been replaced with boldness. Now confidence comes from the realization that I will NEVER go at it alone. He goes before me. And all I can do is follow...one step at a time. It took me falling on my knees and getting over myself that lead me to the cross. And no matter where I go or what I experience or who I experience it with...I will always know I am home WHERE EVER my Father is... and nothing beats that!
"destiny is not an arrival; destiny is journey to the arrival and in that journey our destiny is fulfilled."
"Faith means being sure of the things we hope for and knowing that something is real even if we do not see it." Hebrews 11:1
I was so angry at God that, eventually I just gave up. Spiritually, I fell asleep. Hurt and with feelings of abandonment I was more lonely than I had ever been in my life.
And my journey this year did not begin any easier. It was a road with bumps that have left me bruised and bloody. And one day, when I wasn't looking, I hit a road block. It hit me hard that I fell and landed on my face. Unable to move and pleading to God, I let go and did something so very simple yet very hard for me to do...I asked for help.
You see I had to let go of a load that I had been carrying for so long. It was a load so unique to me full of hurt, fear, insecurity, and pride. It was during this time of hurt and pain both spiritually and physically that I allowed God to begin healing me. I let Him love and care for me as only He can do. That time has been one of the sweetest of my life. For the first time,I began to know God not only as my Father but as my Provider. Its amazing how when we let go and give our hurts and fears over to Him...He fills us with the most amazing things.
I did finally realize why I'm here. It's simply to trust and take up my cross and follow Him. He led me to Dallas. He led me out of a comfortable place to an unknown place that was and sometimes is as scary as hell. Where fear and doubt once were have been replaced with boldness. Now confidence comes from the realization that I will NEVER go at it alone. He goes before me. And all I can do is follow...one step at a time. It took me falling on my knees and getting over myself that lead me to the cross. And no matter where I go or what I experience or who I experience it with...I will always know I am home WHERE EVER my Father is... and nothing beats that!
"destiny is not an arrival; destiny is journey to the arrival and in that journey our destiny is fulfilled."
"Faith means being sure of the things we hope for and knowing that something is real even if we do not see it." Hebrews 11:1
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